May 1, 1953 to May 1, 1978 5:00 p.m . poetry by Michael F. Nyiri


"Lyrical Nostalgia & Foolish Nonsense"

Ambitious Undertaking in Poetical Thought
A "Birthday Chronology"

1953
born
scars heal head wounds
first words-antidisestablishmentarianism
"ma-ma"
1954
one
sis is born
helping "ma-ma" irrigate the yard
two gallon can brimming water
crying in the dark
1955
two
auto piled with boxes
sitting between the mess
staring at my stuffed dog 'nikki'
watching me watching him
listen to the foam filled dog
comforting phrases through the ride
1956
three
california the beach danny
hospitals in los angeles
1957
four
standing with mary by the bee tree
watch out don't get stung
ouch mommy that hurts
danny looks funny crawling towards his first step
1958
five
school begins forever-no need for kindergarten
tall chubby boy walks beside me
when mommy can't 
paper & paints
kimberly
1959
six
mommy what's that?
a blimp oh my
betty boop & chucko the clown
and howdy doody and
a tv with doors that hide the screen
and moving again
no more sneaking away from school
to travel under the street
in that strange tunnel
1960
seven
taking books home to read
ahead of the class
wait-why does my ears hurt mommy
"you're my little genius, you'll be all right"
come to school when I feel better
stay one half a day
1961
eight
bucky beaver
crush on lucy
afternoon's at greg's house
his father looks so strange
balancing beers on his fat stomach
as he watches football games-
-playing moby dick with the gang
trying to tease-and hanging around the girls
mike's a sissy
why does he hang around girls?
1962
nine
fashioning dinosaurs out of papier mache
"mike, you sure have talent"
"my little genius"
everyone is praising me
why?
girlfriends-
playing tetherball with susan during movie time
spending time in the principal's office
"mike, you're much better than this."
1963
ten
honors class with the lesbian teacher
who trains me for superstardom
lucy appreciates the brains
but still likes greg better
"mike, grow up" she says
i never will
bucky beaver becomes a curse too.
1964
eleven
recognition in sunday school
singing "he lives' in soprano
asked back for more
singing with danny as the "nyiri nuts"
imitation beatles
rave reviews
four concerts at lunchtime
...
crushes on lucy
still likes greg better
miguel stops the guys from picking on me
don't like baseball
can't make a hit
1965
twelve
debbie mcculloch
can't forget her...
braces-glasses-corrections to nature's mistakes
told I'd be perfect
small but talented
genius once more
1966
thirteen
new school
new "faces at lunchtime"
new relationships-susan larsen
never forget
quarrels over english assignments
steve k.
recognition
1967
fourteen
criss 
criss
wish I were writing poetry
first kiss
first date
first...
notes exchanging love
dancing...
praises
friendship parties
happy times
1968
fifteen
graduation 
highschool
it's all been said before
lonliness
poetry
scholarship federation
losing siblings
new career
1969
sixteen
clubs
school newspaper-popularity
kathy-kathy-kathy
love?
who knows?
1970
seventeen
clubs-clubs-clubs
government
freshmen meet me in the halls-shout hi
"hi" "how are you" falsifications
junior editor-don't let anyone forget
acting classes, plays
recognition again
mommy's little genius
growing up
having fun
winning awards
appearing on TV
alive
1971
eighteen
the poetry begins - mary & dan assume identities
mike & donna in drama
k.m. and c. m. in journalism
dreams set at once
kathy on my mind
steve b. breaks in - steals her
says he cares
I break up- inside
life-who can change it
girls on the line
i can't respond
the realization
who knows how to stop it
dayna asks for milk & i get it
she thanks me
girls ask for my recognition
writing poems saying "flake off"
recognition
"mommy's little genius" graduates
1972
nineteen
U.S.C. was a natural choice
the D's in class weren't.
steve b. breaks up
but kathy never accepts me
beginning of heartbreak period
new home (moving again) siblings at glendora hi
rah-
get a job-new friends-new responsibilities
mom gets sick-beer becomes a best friend
1973
twenty
hours spent behind hospital walls
sick to my stomach
"mommy will die here- I know"
"don't say that"
escape the pains of sickness
escape the pains of lonliness at school
fall in love
break my heart
discover drugs - wow
goin' crazy
1974
twenty-one
only fun at S.C. with the gang- partying
booze-drugs with friends
racing the flukeswagen and winning
trips to frisco
movies with steve b.
stealing signs with the gang
forget mom is still sick-paralyzed
having fun-why not
dad dies-take control-funeral-bills
why the hell does this happen to me
1975
twenty-two
dan brings a girl into the empty house
she lives here and fucks him- can't take it
move out-apartment in rosemead
reunited with school buddies-parties
mark and bill turn me on to -
christianity
my life finds it's answers
buy a thirty two dollar bible, try to stop drinking
poems dwindle
no one can stop drinking
fuck this
1976
twenty-three
moving-again / new job - other one
nearly got me fired
know a lot about plants now-who cares
i run a garden dept. in a hardware store
fell in love once too often
ruth read my poetry wanted to meet me
meet date make love
went on for a year
the cars crap out all at once
listen to music - tell ruth i'll never love her
1977
twenty-four
mom dies- finally
give up ruth - give up contacts
get fired
discover LSD
cocaine
knebonal
anything...
grow my beard out at last
for six months a hippie
what else can I try
?
1978
twenty-five
goin' crazy every day
after unemployment - opportunity
new job - new responsibilities
then 
i meet cathy d.
the world opens up for me
i fall in love
this time's the last time, i swear
mommy's genius cuts his hair, trims the beard
what happens beyond the next line
i don't know
life still hasn't taught me
what to expect

(an essay on life
in nothing but words
started 5-1-78 at 7pm
finished exactly one month later (almost)
5-30-78 5-5:30am)
1978

copyright 2001-2004 Michael F. Nyiri