November 2, 1994 10:45 P.M. poetry by Michael F. Nyiri

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"I Should Just Be Gone When You Get Back Pt. 1"

It's so hard to let you go
I feel so stupid that I hang on
I should clear my throat
and spit you out
But I try to act like nothing's happened
like it's all the same
		another flare-up
		another calm
another better day
	I refused to believe the better
	day never came
	I listened but did not hear
And as the years passed
I didn't read between the lines.
	Now the book has ended
	and I cannot relate the plot
The pages dogeared and past prime
	And I sit on the daybed
	in the garage full of "my stuff"
As you say "I'm going out"

I should just be gone when you get back.

Dear Pat
You act like I shouldn't exist
You glare at me and become angry

I know it's the end

Goodbye

I left the light on to guide your way

1994

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