Saturday, June 12th , 2004 : 8:24 a.m. pdt
"The Cancerboy Dairies: Entry the 1st"
You didn't listen too well perhaps
But you always have been a stubborn sort
I said I knew what you were bringing to the party
But I was wrong as usual
We've been "together" now for nearly a decade
And the ball in your colon
Had been "together" with you all that time too
Now it is gone
Your bad habits disappeared for a while suddenly
But then re-appeared on the horizon of hellishnessI wrote a poem about you
But you don't like poetry
So you won't read it
I cursed you with tourettelike abandon
in the hours when you slept unawaresI come home to your drunkenness
And lazy abandonment too often
And now the recuperation period
stays you here for what seems like an eternityAnd eternity for you is not a given, is it?
You didn't listen too well perhaps
When the solemn men in white coats diagnosed
and the prognosis was denial in a diatribeNow two threrapies later
Nothing seems to have changed
Nothing bothers you too much
The TV still blares into my room at night
The bottles still pile up on the
sideboard by the sink
The smoke still chokes me as it has for yearsWe haven't changed
The bastard tykes in the project
still think we're queerguys
We still ignore and berate and yell and scream
And thanks for the hug that was sweetWe're on a precipice toghether
But you are the only one in danger of falling
We're living a shared existence
But you are the only one who might see it end soon
We're like a couple of grannies with poor eyesight
Who can't see the truth as it parades before us
We're news junkies without a clue
Responding to bellicose tirades and
Uncertain soliliquies as if we understand
Our differences.I say too often that I hate you old fool
And you keep talking to the cats
Everything is a comedy except the eventual outcome
And I shall be hopeful that these entries
Number many many numerals,
As the cancer stops it's course
And as the therapy poisons
And as we renew the bonds
Which made me say I knew what you were bringing to the party
In the first place.
The Cancerboy Diaries: Entry the 2nd
The Cancerboy Diaries: Entry the 3rd
copyright 1999-2004 by Michael F. Nyiri
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